# Suburban Dirtbag: Week 4

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Day 30

#### GoFundMe and Page Views:

In the last 30 days, the climbing section of this blog has gotten more views than any other page. The Suburban Dirtbag posts account for nearly 30% of my pageviews. Apparently people are interested in reading about my (sometimes mis)adventures!

#### Projecting:

Last week I talked about the great bouldering season I’ve been having. This morning I found myself very frustrated on a (for me) very hard climb. I gave in to all kinds of negative self-talk and much colorful swearing. After 10 really-try-hard attempts within a couple hours I decided it wasn’t going to happen today.

I had to remind my self that success isn’t dependent on sending. You don’t (and won’t) make it to the top every time; at least not if you’re truly challenging yourself (especially in the areas you have deficits). “Projecting” requires an investment of time, phsycial and emotional effort. If it came easy or quick, it wasn’t a project. The term gets overused a lot to describe a problem or route someone has tried (maybe) a handful of times and would like to add to their ticklist.

When I think of the “projects” that I really had to project over the years, I literally cannot tell you how many attempts each one took before I finally completed the climb. The best guess is that it was “so many that I literally stopped counting”; likely more than 50.

Success can come in small doses and that was the case for me today. I had a fast start to the early season and felt a bit down as my progression stabilized. However, I recalled a similar process to today on another recent test-piece boulder problem. I got all excited having chunked a “next level” problem down to a couple sections thinking “It’ll for sure go in the next session or two.” Well, three or four sessions later I find myself getting a little better and refined every attempt, but still not standing atop the boulder.

All I can do is get a little better every day. Someday the problem will go down. Someday it may even go easy. Then, it’s on to the next one that is the new “not easy.” It’s just another climb that has something to teach me. So I guess I’ll keep cherishing the process of failing. Climb on!